i will not answer what it means to bleed

“oxidising: a process where the vessel surrenders itself to
the same element that enabled
it to perform. matter gains a
corporeal sensitivity when it exists
in a constant state of flux”

- hosler and hallyburton (2019)

at a distance, for most eyes, red will be the hardest colour to see

and red is pain 

as green is 

or blue 

and pink was a gavel and a belt 

and now it’s a fuck you 

now it’s a vested interest 

now it’s something to invest in

you can make money off pink 

which is red 

pink doesn’t exist 

except as distant red 

informal pain 

and slightly harder to see

a like-pink wound 

can be learning 

the sure incision of yes

growing in the thick bile

of 

yes

yes is relief

and so is pink

and pink is inside and sometimes it is outside the body

or on top of it

or sewn in

or taken in a pill to invert reality

or injected

or carried by charisma or lack there-of 

the body does 

as it is done upon

and this is what power may be 

a conversation on control 

like helium 

fills a room and is unnoticed

unless ignited or startled

or if we speak too close

we may hear the rearranging of power

the tightening of aluminium

where solidifying becomes a choice

to surrender to oneself means to listen 

which is to  engage with power

a dress fitting of control  

a daily exercise in solidity

and then a memory 

remains 

when control is burnt

or pressurised 

or current

becomes frightening and alluring

looks like time

feels motivating or motor

and that’s all you can see or do

and you do not take your shoes off to enter 

you drink at the burial 

like most do 

and close your eyes for a while to think

and you watch pink

which is now volcanic 

wet molten in the pool

and i hope you are jealous that

some have found an invisible rhythm 

like gas 

and you or we 

have no idea what is coming 

and that will often fill a room

and may offer some relief